Youre not alone , i also felt the same. A lot of times i can barely handle our problems but we need to keep going and I just kept on praying no matter how it feels, sometimes i have a thought of why God did not intervene for i felt that me and my fsmily is drowning already but I lifted myself up by thinking God has a plan for us and we have to leave it up to Him. I hope oneday we will feel before. I also wanted to live in this world being happy with my family. We will pray for each other that our faith to God be stronger and we will have strength to carry on.