I found out almost 4 weeks ago that my wife of 15 years was cheating. I found a text and she admitted it. She had been building relationships with men for 8 months. She met one guy in a hotel for 2 hours and had multiple times. She met another guy twice in a park to give him oral. She met another guy in a parking lot to smoke weed, make out and watch him play with himself. This guy she said had herpes. A fourth guy she said she just went out to eat with. All this while my kids and I are working and at school. To me we were perfect together. She keeps telling me I am all she has ever wanted. I am curious as to how that works. She does not want a divorce. I don't know what I want. How do I forgive and trust again?