I could be surrounded by a sea of people and still feel alone. I don't do well when it comes to people. It's always hard for me to communicate with them or to keep a conversation going with anyone. Eversince I was a little girl I always feel like an outsider. Like I don't belong. Growing up, I have troubles having friends or anyone in particular to run to whenever I needed someone to talk to or to lean on. My family is ok but we don't really share our personal problems to one another. They don't even know that I'm jealous of them for being so good with people. I mean, they have great friends. They do well in life and they know what they want in life and I'm here trying to figure out how to feel NOT different. Trying to feel normal. Like I belong.
byklcontion 02 Jul, 2015 00:18
your definitely not alone and your not so different. I don't know how to make you feel differently about yourself but God does, talk to Him. and know I'm praying God will give you the guidance and assurance you need.
byTee Ceeon 02 Jul, 2015 13:44
No Your not different.Your A child of GOD and just happen to like smaller groups.Pray that GOD will help you with your situation.I too prefer smaller groups myself..The inner circle is very small. But those in my inner circle I treasure....GOD will help. Keep praying. .And remember GOD does listen.
byJanon 04 Jul, 2015 04:59
Hi, yes we are all so different we are unique, in other words when God made you He broke the mold. I think what you mean is different from your family in that they can connect with others where you feel estranged. My parents are the same way, they have a network of friensdships, an active social life, but this is superficial, do not be deceived. The fact that they have so many connections proves that it is supeeficial, it is not possible to be closely connected with numerous people. Our example is Jesus. He had 3 close disciples, one close friend, Lazarus, possibly his sisters too, that we know of. It takes alot of your time and life to develop and maintain quality intimate relationships. You only need one close friend to feel satisfied in that capacity, and that should be Jesus first, then let Him introduce you to His choices for friend(s) for you, you won't be disappointed. Blessings, jan.
byWayneon 17 Aug, 2015 17:31
Wherever I went to live God always gave me 1 or 2 very close friends. The rest were acquaintances. My best relationships were with the one or two, and still is. You are different because you have discovered the meaning of a true relationship based on quality not quantity. Be yourself and enjoy the blessing of being unique. Remember, Jesus was lonely and misunderstood as well. The Bible tells us we are pilgrims passing through a strange land that is not our home.
byEvangelist Georgeon 19 Aug, 2015 01:14
I think you are my dear. When we accept our difference that is when God begins to do great things with us. Accept who u are...many of ur siblings wish they were like u believe it...Your quiet spirit will make room for u someday dont change for anyone but let God give u the confidence u need. There is nothing wrong with you